Separation anxiety

話說這一陣子有很多人要暫時跟我分離，我知道自己已經是個大人了，還是要套套"分離焦慮"這個詞來敘述我對他們依依不捨的感覺。

最先是英文老師Matt要離開去別的大城市深造，我與其他兩位同學一起跟他上一週一次的課，這一年多來，他不吝嗇的分享他的所學，這些教學都是他志願的，我十分欽佩他肯花時間精力為他人付出，而且不求回報，也不驕傲(雖然他常常以自己是猶太人為傲)，我與另外兩位同學可以感受到他教學的熱情，我們都很感動他真心的關心我們這些外國人，我相信以他的聰明才智，在新的城市也有嶄新的生活。

接著是小米奇，趕著畢業後馬上就去報到新兵訓練，雖然說報效國家是件好事，我也不是經常跟他說話的，可是想到他會頂著大光頭在大太陽底下操練，尤其聽說他抽到籤王海軍陸戰隊，作姐的我還是會捨不得，搞笑地唱了首"哥哥爸爸真偉大"給他聽，我更祈求他多保重了，話說回來米奇之後會成為體格健壯的男人，作姐的我還是為他感到驕傲呢!

最後Monica畢業後很快也要離開了，我們剛當室友的時候，朋友戲稱這是"公主與宮女"的組合，當然我是那位宮女啦，不過我必須要為Monica公主平反一下，雖然她是個直腸子，可是她的心腸非常體貼溫柔。這一年來，快樂的日子中有她可以一起開懷大笑，在心情不好的時候，她是最佳的聽眾，在沉悶的時候，我們可以互相找樂子，把無聊變有聊，在疑惑的時候，她的角色變成了軍師，在我需要漂亮的時候，她把我變成公主，當我不乖乖吃正餐或運動的時候，她會碎唸要我留意健康......現在搬離到新的住處才第二晚，我已經開始想念與她共同嘻笑怒罵的時光，由衷的祝福她從今以後鵬程萬里 *^^*

試考完了，房子也搬了，雖然之後還有論文要寫，可是至少完成to-do-list裡階段性的重要大事，而且新的室友非常好，還有小貓Oliver喜歡趴在我房間的窗台上，我會振起精神的

p.s.我開始期待九月的台灣假期，跟兩年多不見的好朋友們見面，也是時候要聽聽新歌了，不然到時候去KTV一定會亂放炮的......腦中突然閃過一首歌，我知道這個詞的場景背景跟我的"分離焦慮"不太合，不過我真的希望 We never said goodbye (聽聽看Barbra Streisand唱的動人版本)

AS IF WE NEVER SAID GOODBYE

I don't know why I'm frightened
I know my way around here
The cardboard trees, the painted seas, the sound here...
Yes, a world to rediscover
But I 'm not in any hurry
And I need a moment


The whispered conversations in overcrowded hallways
The atmosphere as thrilling here as always
Feel the early morning madness
Feel the magic in the making
Why, everything's as if we never said goodbye


I've spent so many mornings just trying to resist you
I'm trembling now, you can't know how I've missed you
Missed the fairy tale adventure
In this ever spinning playground
We were young together


I'm coming out of make-up
The lights already burning
Not long until the cameras will start turning...
And the early morning madness
And the magic in the making
Yes, everything's as if we never said goodbye


I don't want to be alone
That's all in the past
This world's waited long enough
I've come home at last!


And this time will be bigger
And brighter than we knew it
So watch me fly, we all know I can do it...
Could I stop my hand from shaking?
Has there ever been a moment
With so much to live for?


The whispered conversations in overcrowded hallways
So much to say not just today but always...
We'll have early morning madness
We'll have magic in the making
Yes, everything's as if we never said goodbye
Yes, everything's as if we never said goodbye...
We taught the world new ways to dream!